The Soul of a Child

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Part I · Chapter XII

The boy had a logical mind. He knew that Granny's story had not been finished, and he wanted all of it. At the first opportune moment he asked his mother: "Was Granny a little girl when she came to Stockholm?" "No," said his mother unsuspectingly, "she was already a young woman." "What did she do before?" "I told you," the mother replied, now on her guard. "You told me what she did as a little girl, but not afterwards. I want to know." "Oh, she worked, I suppose." There was evidently nothing more to be had in that direction. "And what did she do in Stockholm," Keith pushed on. "She married your grandfather, as I told you, and then I was born." "What was he?" The mother remained silent for a good long while, and Keith repeated his question, not yet having learned that unanswered questions generally are unwelcome questions. "He was a vaktmästare," she said finally, and Keith knew that, for some reason, she found the word unpleasant. The boy reflected a while before he observed: "That's what papa is." "Your father's position is quite different," his mother rejoined sharply. "It's a shame that he and his comrades in the bank have no other title--although some of them deserve nothing better." "What should they be called?" "I don't know exactly--collectors, I think, because they go around and collect the money that is due to the bank." "And what are real vaktmästare doing?" "The real ones work in government departments--not as officials, but just as attendants--it's something you can't understand yet." Keith nodded. He didn't understand, but the words stuck and the understanding came later. "And those that are not real," he persisted. His mother laughed and patted him on the head. "There is a lot of them," she said. "They look after coats and hats in theatres and restaurants, and wait at dinners, and do all sorts of things." "Was that what grandfather was doing?" A queer look came into his mother's eyes and sent a glow of self-satisfaction through his whole being. The look was familiar to him and meant that his mother was annoyed by the question but pleased with his cleverness in thinking of it. "No," she answered, "not exactly...." "What did he do," asked Keith, and as he spoke he sent a look of anticipation toward his own corner. "He was an attendant in the big club where all the rich business-men go to spend their evenings, and he died when I was a little girl ... have you nothing else to ask about?" "What was papa's father," Keith ventured after a pause. "He worked in the royal palace." Again the mother's tone served as a warning, but also as a goad to the boy's curiosity. "What did he do there," he demanded eagerly. The lines about his mother's mouth grew tighter and harder, and she spoke as if the words hurt her--but she did not refuse to answer, and she did not send him away: "He was a lackey." From the moment he began to speak, Keith had showed an unusual sense for the value and peculiarities of words. They interested him for their own sake, one might say. He treasured them, and he gave more thought to them than to people. The word lackey he had heard before, and he had formed a distinct opinion about it as not desirable. "Then he was a servant," he blurted out. "In a way," his mother admitted. "And we are all servants, for that matter. But working in the king's palace is not like--working as Lena does here, for instance." The last part of her remark went by unheeded by Keith. His thoughts leapt instead to his paternal grandmother--a strict and unapproachable little lady who visited them at rare intervals dressed in a quaint old shawl and a lace-trimmed cap. A great wonder, not unmixed with pleasure, rose in his mind at the thought that her husband had been a sort of servant after all. For some reason utterly beyond him, there was solace as well as humiliation in the consciousness of a stigma, if such it be, that attached equally to both his grandfathers, and not only to his mother's parent. Then a new idea prompted a new question. "Was Granny a servant when she came to Stockholm?" "She was obliged to take service in order to live," his mother replied very gently. "There is nothing about that to be ashamed of.... I have known fine ladies who started in the kitchen. But, of course, one doesn't like to talk of it to everybody." Keith recognized the hint in her final words, but thought it needless. He was already on his way back to his own corner, tired for the time of asking questions, when he suddenly turned and said: "We are just as good as anybody else, are we not?" It was a phrase he had overheard sometime. Now it seemed to fit the occasion, and it sounded good to him. "There is the royal family," his mother rejoined enigmatically. "But one of Granny's cousins was a lieutenant-colonel in the army." "Where is he now," Keith demanded, agog with interest. "He is dead, and--and we have never had anything to do with his family."

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